loST

2006-08-08T02:35:00.000+08:00

http://www.xanga.com/pixieash_fairy

thats the place to go

2006-05-25T15:20:00.000+08:00

ok the word is out..
i am no longer here..
no more words here..
ask me more if u want

2006-05-15T11:47:00.000+08:00

if only you knew how much i wanna make you smile

2006-04-08T19:59:00.000+08:00

i want tat foreign air..
i want tat foreign space..
i want tat foreign feeling..

take me away!!
it's been too long
i almost forgot how it felt like already..
its only been a few days but it feels like forever..
I HATE EXAMS!!

i feel like flying away again
somewhere far where noone can find me...

2005-12-20T01:28:00.000+08:00

taking something/someone for granted is one of the most deadly thing to do and it is something so easy to commit as well

i am a bad friend

2005-11-07T15:09:00.000+08:00

random thoughts of the day:

1) i just realised i did not take enough pictures in melbourne.
2) all pictures are face pictures.. (thus showing how photo whore i can be..hehe)
3) i am gonna make a point to take more scenery pictures. but of coz with faces..haha.. (but this means no more self-holding-camera-with left hand poses anymore)
4)swanston st, flinders st, bridge road, camberwell market, lygon st, bourke st, st kilda's, crown(what st is crown on.. i forgot), chinatown(i forgot too..), myers, the reject store!! haha, the lollystore, half price sushi!!!, DB!!!, ling nam, treshermans( i think i spelt this wrongly)
5) all the above is proof that i have been to MELBOURNE..haha.. just to recollect since i have not much concrete pictures to prove the many places i visited
6) now that friendster surfing aint so fun anymore.. i am addicted to BLOG surfing!! this sucks.. coz its even more time consuming now..considering i am STILL addicted to ADOBE aka collages!
7) blog surfing inspires me to blog more though
8) i have like 3 sored up pimples on my forehead!! AH WAT THE HECk!
9) i am ugly
10) i do not want to go to school
11) finally my fringe is coming into use and i am using it cover half my forehead
12) i hate the redness and the sorey feeling on my forehead
13) i cant even sweep my hair away from my eyes coz the stupid pimpleS gets in the way when my hand brushes against it
14) i try to write my entires cryptically
15) but people still figure out what i am trying to say
16) but to begin with not many read this anyway
17) so i might as well be as obvious as i can be and just type watever i can think of at the top of my head
18) i have a perpetual flu and it just wun go away
19) i NEED my CURE!! ( the non- Medical way!!!!)
20) just to round it off.. since i actually came up with 19 random thoughts =)

2005-11-05T03:44:00.000+08:00

you know how it is...

when u see his grin, you cant help but smile too
when u see his frown, you cant help but frown too..
although u do not know for wat reason
when u know he is unhappy, you cant help but try to act silly just to make him laugh..
although i dun think i succeed all the time

its amazing how he affect me sometimes

2005-10-31T15:58:00.000+08:00

I declare today as LUV-M-DAy EVE!!!!

*heheh* only the priviledged will know this and will get to enjoy ExcLusivE treats!!
yeH yEh yEHh

2005-10-27T02:51:00.000+08:00

i cannot wait!!!!
i want time to fly by soon!!

2005-10-26T11:11:00.000+08:00

its been a while....

~the girl just wanna have some fun~

2005-10-14T00:15:00.000+08:00

my collage craze is BACK!!!~
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2005-09-12T13:14:00.000+08:00

i try to be optimistic
i try to be nice
i try to fly
i try to deny
but in the end
all i do is c..

emptiness that i try to fill
trying to stop the way i feel
just to get near
but in the end
all i do is cause more fear

i still want it to be ...
my worst nightmare is here

2005-09-10T13:00:00.000+08:00

coke instead of beer
the highness of the wee hrs instead of the highness of tobacco
its just therapeutic to breathe in night air
talk abt everything and nothing
it makes you realise things

you will feel ashamed
coz when u think abt it..
sometimes we aint tat unlucky compared to some others.

this is inevitable
i am not afraid anymore
wakeup&openyoureyes
i am distracted again..
darn
FOcus!

2005-09-05T01:09:00.000+08:00

BIG HUGGGGGGGGGGSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i dun care what people think
i just do what i wanna do
and feel what i wanna feel
whenever i want to

and sometimes just being a girl...
i put up my barrier and protect myself
but yet just sometimes..
for you..
i let my guard down..

just for the sole reason tat you are being you

that's why its special
coz its beyond any description
yet we still understand somehow

2005-09-03T13:35:00.000+08:00

roaD trIp..roaD trIP!! although known as sleepy town yet its still fuN fun FUn!! =)
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2005-08-28T01:27:00.000+08:00

sometimes i just feel contented listening
even simple stuff like asking for my opinion
it's silly but it's true
it just brings a smile to my face

i realise i dun need an elaborate lifestyle
i actually just want to live simply
riches wld be good
but happiness is wat i crave

i tend to forget sometimes
and i do not appreciate enough
i hate tat

2005-08-25T14:37:00.000+08:00

oooohhh.. noo.. baby pls dun go...

i want to shout it at the top of my voice..
luv oldiesssss

more pictures to come after i get them~~

2005-08-25T14:34:00.000+08:00

top: red box modELs for racheL..*hehe*
bottom: mini celebration in pancake parLour, one of the faV places in meLb
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2005-08-20T16:44:00.000+08:00

gummy bearsss gummy bearss.. jumping jumping blah blah here n there...la la la la la la la la la

questions questions
why am i so afraid of them
i have learn a lesson from my trip...

we all have our mothers' traits in each of us
"take your keys..
bring your hp..
wash your plates properly.."
and so much more tat is for me to know and for u to NEVER find out.
OMG.. the naggy aunty is unleashed!!

i am afraid to look
i escape

2005-08-19T11:19:00.000+08:00

i am BACK!!!!
and i have a HEADACHE!!!!!
lazylazylazylazy is all i FEEL!!!!
i have grown pale and fat and lazy
omg i sound like a P. I. G!!!
hahah i luvv this large fontsss!

2005-06-21T02:57:00.000+08:00

YESSyESS..hehe..so maybe i am just a lil bit more excited now..
since maybe its just well tHE day today..
in fact its prob in like a few hours time..
if i have to be accurate it will be 16hrs and 48mins.. and counting

well i guess this is wat they call anxiety eh
its 3 freakin am and i am still as energized as anything
just tat my whole body aches now n i have yet to enjoy enough of my bed yet
my stomach feels queasy.. i think its my stupid cramps
oh my god..
its all settling in..
i am startin to freak out..
this is unrEAL..
its TODAY!!!!!!!

my sweets, my icecreams, my milo, my strawberries, my vitamins, my huGs..and and and..*hehe*... AWAITS ME!!!!!!! YEHH!!!!!

gOOdbYE PEOPLE!!!!!

2005-06-21T02:56:00.000+08:00

hehehe.. i cant help this collage addictioN
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2005-06-16T23:02:00.000+08:00

i am doIn collages..bEcauSe becaUSE.. i am goin to get to do moRE soON!!!..hehe
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2005-06-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

no more smiles
no more feelings
no more hyperness

stoning
breathing
flashbacks
tears
screams
shivers

i hate this
i hate change
i hate everything
i hate a no smile me

2005-06-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

the time
the day
the place where we will see each other again
"i'm leavin my nest"
i'm flying away far far away
finally i get a chance to learn n experience independence
alritee 21yrs-old-me!!!

snappin pictures
venturing suburbs
lying in warm cosy covers, sippin my hot milo
bakin n cookin different recipies
shOPPin in supermarkets
eating ice creams

~~i suddenly have a craving for pancakes, waffles, crepes ANd eggS!!~~

2005-06-06T00:50:00.000+08:00

i'M on my waY thereee!!!!! hOOOrrayyyy!! soon we will be on the same siDE!!
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2005-06-06T00:47:00.000+08:00

thaNKss everyonE for tuRning up!! even yOU who's 30 000 miles away for just wanting to be there!! =)
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2005-05-31T17:26:00.000+08:00

theairtiCket is sealed and stamped and ISSUeD!!!!!

when thehandphone cld not recieve overseas call
and the auto roaming just wldn't work
wat happens then..
u gave up your handphone to me
so that i wld be contactable at all times in case i get lost
just thinkin of that, i feel protected again...

---- bangkok memories~

2005-05-24T00:51:00.000+08:00

hehehe.. i am hapPY..i am a fuLL time shoPPin gurL from noW on!!
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2005-05-18T23:59:00.000+08:00

tears of joy..
i never felt that before..
you maDe it hapPen..
what more can i ask fOR..

thIs is foR yoU..
the sOng is foR you..
everything is foR yOU!!!!
coz u just dEserVe it!!!

2005-05-15T00:40:00.000+08:00

whenever it rains n pours..
i just feel like blogging..
it makesss me misssss n think...
wheres my hiphopper sugaaa dadddyyy..
i feel like i miss a part of me when i take photos
wish u were here again..

sooon soon.. one more wk n i am done with being office gurl
n i am back to full time orchard shopper..
n after awhile more it will be THE day..
then a few wks where i will be bored to death coz everyone else will be flying away first
before its my tuRn to fly fly fly...

adidas, pumas, jackets, clothes, earrings, accessories, bags, gucci-type sunglasses, ipod shuffle (as if noone already knows tat one..hehe)... yOU you yoU..
yess just a preview of mywiSh list..

2005-05-01T00:23:00.000+08:00

i feel so exhausted
holidays started just 2 wks ago n i am workin my guts out
may21st hurry up come so i can have my shoppin days back!!
my camera is collecting dust coz i dun feel like takin pictures coz i aint having fun now..
unless u think takin pictures of pansonic phones n tired phone promoters' faces n computer screens as funfilled activites

everyday just have been work work n more work..
just for the sake of money money money n more money..
i have never worked for something so hard before but i dun care..
i hAVE to enjoy myself with the end product.. i MUST!

after may21st i can go shoP!
i can go sunTAn!
i can fINALLY start to do proper excerCise! ( yes, i aM!! dun u laugh!)
n my birthday will cOME!!!..*hehe*
n after that i will be missin from singapore for quite a lil while..*heh*

*huRryhurryhurry* "may21stmay21stmay21st"
i havent been seeing everyone since..forever..
this is even worse than scHOOL?? how is this possible??

it is LABOUR DAY on monday n i am wORKin!
yes..that public holiday that everyone is supposedly enjoying with..
so come along n find me at causeway pt equipped with 4 phones bulging out from my jeans pocket
come maKe my day!!

2005-04-16T17:49:00.000+08:00

i LUVV this song!!!
this song reminds me of aussie..
aussie gives me a warm fuzzy feeling..
warm fuzzy feeling reminds me of YOU!!

with a little of my own analytical skills..
in the format of:
A then B
B then C
C then D
D then E
> conclusion: A then E!!!
hehe.. can YOU see it?

2005-04-16T17:30:00.000+08:00

it's weird how people are..
to always think the worst possible state they are in
when in actual fact, they are not

it's weird what people can come up with..
to create a whole drama tragic situation in their head and imagin them experiencing it
when in actual fact, they are having the best out of it all..

it's weird how people can feel so alone..
to feel so lost and invisible
when in actual fact they are being loved by pple who care
if they just open their eyes really big..

and yOU know what's the weirdest of ALL..
how some people has finished all her papers
and instead of jumping for joy and enjoying, she's pitying herself for her own mistakes
when in actual fact she deserves it and shld just get on and not burden pple with her whinings..

YES.. that's me in a NUtshELL
all of the above!!
DAMM the gloomy weather..

it's amazing how one voice can lift you up when you are at the lowest

2005-04-10T14:58:00.000+08:00

yoU know how songs somehow brings you back to that moment and jots back memories from the past when u first heard that song..
or what the particular song represents with the lyrics..
its amazing how it works.. just by hearing it.. makes me remember the past..
no wonder it is said how much swoon factor there is when a guy strums his guitar n sings a song to you..
hehe..ok thIS has to stOp 3 posts in 3 hRS!!..ok i aM outta hERE...
thiS pOSt is insPIred when the radio is playing: joe's: i wANNa knOW
dO u rEmEmbEr that song..

2005-04-10T13:42:00.000+08:00

"nothing takes the taste out of

peanut butter

quite like unrequited love."

Charles M. Schulz,

Charlie Brown in Peanuts

that line just gave me a warm fuzzy feELing inside..

i dunno why..maybe coz its charlie brown..takin me back to the innocence of cartoons..and bringing me back to childhood land..hehe..

OK..too much sidetrACks.. i have just wASted 2 hrs of doIn nothing!!

i just realise when i blogsurf i liKe to see pretty pictures of pple..does that imply i shld pUT up moRe photos toO..

hehe..OK.. by aLL meanS i wiLL..hehe..

yEs!! pPLE.. i aM oFFiciaLLY a phOTo whoRe!!

2005-04-10T12:34:00.000+08:00

i am in the mood for inDependent lifestyle again..
so i am suppose to be studying rite now..
but i am acTually aheaD of schEdule n finish my online notes and on to my exam test questions.. but i feel so accomplished for once i just dun feel like reading again..
so i went to blog surf around..
and whenever i read abt how pple are living overseas.. i feel an urge again..
yess so it might be hard in the beginning.. but i really dun care
i crave for my own freedom when i can go out as and when i feel like it..
i know i can do this now too.. but i still have to live with responsibility of calling my mum and letting her know my whereabouts.. and i sometimes even have to endure her paranoia.. like if i wanna go out at 12am she will start freaking out on me like.. " why why?? why u wanna go out? did something happen? are u gonna cry?..blah blah blah.."
sighh cant a gurl just go out and have supper and chill...
ugH!! it fustrates me as much as i know she's just being a mum.. but i can REALLY take care of myself.. i just need the occasional breeze on my face and good ol mindless chit chats.. which i am rEALLY deprived of rite now...did i mention how i wish exAms wld huRRy up be over.. so she cannot tie me down with the burden of stayin home to study...

pLSS... gET me aN aiR tiCket riTe noww!!!
this is paRT 1001 of prIsciLLa's plea to get outta here!!

2005-04-09T12:40:00.000+08:00

Question: what are you goNna do today?

Answer: study

Question: what are you gonna dO tomorrow?

Answer: stuDy agaIN...

Question: what are you goNna be doIn next wk then?

Answer: AHHH!! sTUdY!!!!!

saVE mE fRom this "S" monster alreaDY!!!!

2005-03-31T12:01:00.000+08:00

~~~~hOLidaY mOOd aLREady~~~
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2005-03-31T11:15:00.000+08:00

vaCation vaCatiON...
hoLidaY hoLiday....
caNt waIT aLready....

~whEres mY vaCatiOn????~

2005-03-25T13:05:00.000+08:00

i jusT absoultely craCk up whenever i hear thiS song..
it just brings back soooo many childhood memories..
when you were so youNg and innocent and all you hear is laughers and giggles from each other..
and all you do whole day is play masak masak..
spraying each other with water guns..
i waNNa be 5 agaIN!!

anD i Luvv the feeling of reliving memories together..
to think back together and laUGh at every and eaCh encoUnter..
it makes me feel like we have been part of each other's life the whole way
yOU make me feEL yoUNg and sPoilt..

i aM also thINkin abt my birthday thats not drawinG near yet somEhow its cOMing coz of constant reminders by my mum...
tO celebrate oR noT tO celebrate..that is the questiOn..
noT lOOkin forwarD to iT for obVIous reasoNs..
but i cant help buT staRt to dRAw up my birthday list in my miND..*teehee*
i caN thiNK of soOO many thIngs i waNT!!!

i just luvvvv doing up LISTS...dun ya..*wiNKs*

2005-03-21T10:17:00.000+08:00

i feel myself
withering by the days..
fading by the hours..
sinking by the mins..
drowning by the second...

it comes and goes ..
and sinks in once in awhile..
killing me softly inside..

i waNT my gLoW bacK~

2005-03-19T12:06:00.000+08:00

you made me realise maybe blogging isnt all that fun anymore..
so it is like a diary that records all my thoughts.
some happy, some sad, some boring, some entertaining..
but yet do i want to be reminded of the sad times
or to choose to relive the happy ones..

reading back.. i see my entries getting happier and happier by the month..

do you know why...
~its because of yoU~

2005-03-13T23:44:00.000+08:00

i laughed so hard till i cried today..
then i cried so hard till i had to laugh my sadness away..

the thought of you is comforting yet its just not enOUgh cOMpared to haVin u
~i need photos to kEEp me haPPy~
more collages to coMe~!

2005-03-13T20:22:00.000+08:00

cOLLage roCKss!!!! =) feeling happier noW~
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2005-03-10T17:05:00.000+08:00

chEck out that yoU tiow! nO zoomin in effect at aLL...
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2005-03-10T17:03:00.000+08:00

next on the menu..peanuts & EGGS..*grIN*
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2005-03-10T17:01:00.000+08:00

look at the peanuts overFlowINg..hee..and this is when it is aLready haLf-eaten
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2005-03-10T16:37:00.000+08:00

so much things to do, so much feelings to feel,
yet no time to do everything at once..
i am practically out of breath, i can feel the pressure on me,
drained out from work...yes i am..
i am goin to be a geylang pro sooner or later with all these research on it..

all i crave now is... you

2005-02-27T22:00:00.000+08:00

skYpe iS thE greaTestt invEntion evERRRR!!

yOU maKe mY daY!!!!!

2005-02-24T11:47:00.000+08:00

in a short span of 2 hours i actually felt a fluRRy of emoTions...from excited to happy to cheeky to bleh and now....

i waNNa rUN away agAIN!!! to a far fAR awAY placeee!!!!
i dun want to stay here anymore..i want new streets to walk on , i want to experience neW weathER!! i want to sLeep in a nEW rooM..

tAKe me away...PLS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2005-02-24T11:11:00.000+08:00

i cant believe i found the word shady at that imood thing...
haha.. so such worD existss

kk.. anyway i am gonna be involved in some real shady night activities at the shadiest part of singapore..hehe.. let all your imagination runn wild wild wild!!

hope everything will run as planned and we all wun get caught red-handed..*hee hee*

2005-02-22T09:38:00.000+08:00

BlaSt fROm thE paSt

meeting an old frend a few days back jacked up alot of memories..

i feel like my present is being chased by my past..
people who disappeared from my life, re-entering..
people in my lifE at present, leaving...

who would have guessed things will turn out this way..
if i look back.. i would never have expected all these to have happened..
did i regret any of the things i have done or the decisions that i have made??
but if my past did not happen, would i even have reached this stage where i am really quite contended with what i have now..

although i might be experiencing a different stage rite now.. but at least i know in a few yrs time..i will learn a whole lot more which i have yet to discover now.

which comes back to the question of..
few years down the road.. would i be surprised again to find out where i stand and who is beside me holding my hand

2005-02-18T18:10:00.000+08:00

it has only been 2 daYS.. and i am miSsin u already.. YES...yOU!!!!!! (you know who u are..)

how howww lydat.. sometimes i keep thinkin u might just pop out from somewhere and surprise me with just your prescence. buT that is jusT me drEaming..

my whOLe room is in a mess nOW and all your things are lying around.. i cant bear to pack it and i just want to leave everything within eye range..

i nEEd retAiL theraphy!! i nEEd biG huGsss!! i neEd tiSSue papER!! hehe.. no lah.. not so drama..

buT seriouSLy.. everything feelS different withoUt u..

i miSS youR BIG cheST aLready!!!

2005-02-14T09:19:00.000+08:00

i gOt my littLE bLue box!!!!!!
~~~lalalala~~~~~

so haPpy till i can prance aroUnd the house and i aM not evEn bothering if my proJEct screws up anOt..ok maybe just a teeenyy weeny bit.. but whenever i stare at my necK everything mAkes it ok. =)

2005-01-27T14:22:00.000+08:00

why do i want unhappy things to happen so that i will be happy?

why bother try when u eVEN have to try?

why am i so fickle-minded?

why cant i just settle with one siDE?

whY am i feeling like thIS?

yes.. i am in one of those "whY" moods again..

i feel like i am pretending yet at the same time not. i want things to be happy yet i cant find the effort to be happy..

where is my anchor to set me firm? should i set sail into nevernever laNd??

dO i craVE for draMA in my liFE?

2005-01-26T22:22:00.000+08:00

is it possible to like and not like at the same time??

ugh..i hope its pms but i doubt it

i feel a heavy feeling inside me again..soo heavy that i feel like killing it but cant

i dunno what to think.. i dunno what to do..i dunno what to say..

once again i feel nothing..

2005-01-24T20:12:00.000+08:00

just watched an old episode of sex and the city.. and just watching her type on her laptop and writing out her thoughts just make me SO want to blog..haha.. yesyes i am in my self imaginary little world again where i imagin all things impossible of myself..

but really.. how nice it would be to have the flair to write well.. everytime i blog surf (yeS i still do that often..hee) and when i read how some pple just describe their daily routines in such beautifully chosen words.. it makes me so envious of them.. why do some pple write so well and some don't? i guess thats why some will grow up to be editors and some will just be stuck at their office desk typing out business proposals..

its been long since i just ramble on my blog eh..but to begin with noone reads this thing.. BUT thats what i luvv about my blog.. NOONE reads this..heh
i am in a realm of freeedom here.. where i can think and write and imagin anything i want to be and noone will laugh at me.. except the few that knows this blog existence.. but other than that..

ok..parties parties are coming up soon.. farewell parties.. welcoming parties.. 21st bday partiess..!! ah ahh!!! howw.. so many things to do and so little time ..
am i missin out on something.. oh yah.. PROJECT DEADLINES!!!
how am i gonna time manage all these things for the next following few weeks.. i really dunno..
but u will be sure to see a tired and swollen-eyed me come feburary!!

2005-01-21T17:34:00.000+08:00

i absoLutely luV lUV thIS!!
it maKEs mE go nuTs and excIted when i heaR it..
haha..sO ppLe migHt thinK i am a yOUng immature punKster
buT i duN careeee

i diG hIp hOp!!
hell...i even lUv to poP and lOCk..*heHe*
i aM a HiP hOP suCkEr!!
anD i'M luVing iT~!

~whEn i heaR hiPhOP, i thINK of yoU~

2005-01-08T02:17:00.000+08:00

haPPyyy nEWww yEAr~~
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2005-01-08T02:16:00.001+08:00

cHEEeeeSSEE!
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2005-01-08T02:16:00.000+08:00

wiDEE gRINSSS!!!
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2005-01-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

one single night
one single action
one single move...
things are different..
perspective have changed...

what have i to say?
the truth is.. i feel nothing..
really..
i can cry no more.. all i do now is actually laugh..
maybe its a facade maybe its not..
but i truly just feel like laughin it out..

everyone probably thinks i am putting up a brave front..
maybe i am..
but really.. i am not tryin to put up one..
this is just it is..
i dun deny pain is felt...

but i feel...nothing
all i have to say is..
i am back in my shell and my own theory still stands in my head..
i still believe what i believe..
and noone seems to want to prove me wrong..

i dun think i feel the same way i do anymoRe

2004-12-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

onE morE wk... and scHOOl's starting.. aRGH!!!
suCKSSS.. BADD..
i want moRE hOLidaySS!!! timE is passing toOO fastt..toOO furIOUs..
i cant... i cant switch back to study mode againn..
i still want to ..dO shOppiN.. and bakINg..and chaT endlessly..and take late nighT rides.. ( not toO many of that.. buT i must say i madE mosT proGress this month in the driving aspect.. gOt to drive diFF carss.. thanks to nice nice frIEnds.. although i am sure i made them panIc the wHole ride.. but still.. i thank you all..hehe).. aNd slaCk and slaCk and moRe slaCking..

grrr.. why must goOd things always come to an eND..

talKin about end... the enD is nearingg...
giVe and taKe..2 morE mthSs... hOW!!

oH well.. being the cost saVing me right now.. i downloaded the wHOLe flava Cd online..hehe..
getting iN the mOOooooood

2004-12-26T20:52:00.000+08:00

chEck ouT the prEsentS that I, ME wraPPed..hehe
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2004-12-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

i aM a haPPy guRL~ ;)
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2004-12-26T20:39:00.000+08:00

mErrry mErrryyy!!
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2004-12-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

ouR owN coUNtdoWn to chRistmas...chEERssss!!
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2004-12-26T18:47:00.000+08:00

smOOochiess
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2004-12-21T13:30:00.000+08:00

i just realise that i NeVER was the one to wrap the presents we bought during all these years.. haha.. and somehow this year it ended up me being the one to wrap.. and i absOLutELY luVVVV it.. although pple might have to suffer my messy end result of my handiwork.. BUT I had fun..

it actually gave me the warrrrmm fuzzy feeling of christmas that i never had for a very longg timeee.. even christmas shoppin.. although that actually meant leavin me with only a sIngle digit in my bank account.. but its all worth it.. so you guys better all enjoy yourself this christmas with all the effort that i am puttin in.

yehyehhyehhhhh.. we sHALL ALL opeN our prEseNTs toGETHER at tWELVE thIs christMas!!!

2004-12-19T02:12:00.000+08:00

OLD sChOOL babieSS!!!! luvvvyA aLL!!!
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2004-12-16T02:09:00.000+08:00

sometimes it is not the right comforting words to be said..
actually all it takes is just a simple and genuine " i understand " from your besTeST ol fren and everything feels so much better.

*huGGSSSSSSSSS*
just gotta say.. you still know me best man!

2004-12-14T00:57:00.000+08:00

sooo satisfied with our end product.. the mashing, the mixing, the slicing, the frying. more to come on christmas day *grIN*
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2004-12-14T00:54:00.000+08:00

bakIn baKIN!! soo in the mood. guess what that is...
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2004-12-05T01:35:00.000+08:00

self realisation: i am dependant.
vERY.. fuuCK.. why cant i be strong
i had 3 words to say to you.. yet now i dunno what i am doin and what i am feeling anymore.

all i can keep tellin myself is i cannot control anything from happenin anymore.. and take it as it comes..
but the familiar feelin creeping inside me as i close my eyes.. the lost feelin that i feel as you pull away from me. the million questions and doubts i have poppin up in my brains...again
i fuckin cant take it.. and i fuckin want to run away. i really do.. i want to start anew.. i dun want to be reminded of any more things. i dun want my past to haunt me.. i just want it to go away so i can believe again.

i dun want to be reliant on anyone.. i only want you to protect me.. i really do.
i really want to tell you the truth
that i am really tired and that i want to give up
i am sorry for thinkin too much
but i am just like this
i am sorry for being stubborn
but my character is just as it is.

i need answers but i cant get any.
i want my best friend back..
but i dun even know who is that anymore..
i am fuckin lost
i just wanna vanish

2004-12-02T01:43:00.000+08:00

walkin out the sliding doors..
hearin the familiar language over the speakers as we dragged our luggages as we walk out the arrival gates..
being welcomed with a mass of people with yearning looks on their faces as a group of us approach..
hopin that one of us will be the one that they are waiting for..
thinkin on.. in a few more months i will prob be like one of them...but thats a whole other issue.
for now....

we aRE baCK tO singApORE!!!

so i must admit i do kinDa miss the familiar comfort zone of mine right here in good ol singapore
but i cannot deny.. travelling is fun fun funnnnn!!
everything seems so new and the experience to explore and be touristy..coz we ARE!!
whippin out our maps.. walkin around aimlessly coz we have nothing else to do BUT SHOP!! i luv vacatioNS!!!! i want mOREE!!!

taKIn siLLy pIctuRESS..
orderIN rOOm servICE...
waLKin tHRU sOOo manY nighT markETs i LosT coUNT
gettin on each other nERVES.. in a fUNNy wAY...
tryiN to acT all responsible to eacH otheR..
ouR mosT amuSin niGht at hARd roCk with thE guY witH the mOVess
ouR mosT eye-oPening niGHt at nAnA plaZA..*chEEky wiNKS*
eXcitED sCReamS when we foUNd gooD OL mtV and eSPN whilE chANNel surfing through all the thai channels...

i nEEd a bOOk to wrITe aLL thIS dowNN!!

anD chRistmAs is cOMINN!!!.. i gOT my earLY chRistmas pReseNT this YR!! luvitluvitluvitt

get iN the MOOD witH thiS musiCC..
iluvv christmass lightings in orChARd since we cAnt get snow

2004-11-22T21:30:00.000+08:00

MUSICC!!! mUSICC!!!!!
hahah.. yeheyEH!!!

okokok.. i WILL studyyy noW!!!
i am sooo scRewedddd..

coUNtdoWN!!! 5 moRE dAYSS!!!!!
heHE..

2004-11-20T21:02:00.000+08:00

i am distracted.. i CAnt concENTRATE!!!
ughhh studying is such a headache
it is only in one weeks time yet it seems like forever.........

i cant wait for holidays to come.. so many things to do.. soo little time
i cant believe i had a year break and i did not even spend it wisely..
wat was i thinnkin..
all these precious time wasted..
well its never too late...

december sounds like its gonna be fun fun funnnnnnn..yipPEEEEE!

the bestest feeeling evERR in the world.. i feel: is to wake up in the morning with you by my side and a bigg hugg from youu!
thE greaTESTTTT!!

everything feels sooooo right.. soooo perfect now
its scary..
its unbelieveable...

2004-11-17T01:15:00.000+08:00

i am STILL IN SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whOOOO hOOOOOO!!

2004-11-15T01:24:00.000+08:00

i ammmmm floattinggggg in the airr...

i suddenly feel this sense of euphoria.. and i dunno why..

your want to only make me happy.
your smile that brings a smile to my face too.
your efforts to try and surprise me even though i knew u had something up your sleeve.

i luuuvvvvvvvv~~~~~~~~~~

2004-11-11T16:56:00.000+08:00

i finaLLY got high!! and it did not feel good at aLL!! cant deny i had a fun time.. but having to puke every 2 secs and not able to dance properly.. suck badd..
and the crowd queuing outside zouk was overWHELmINg.. despite knowin that it would be crowded but cant believe it was THAT crowded. but what am i to judge when i cant even remember half the stuff i did.. everything was such a blur.. walking around like a tomato-face n talkin non-stop and laughin like a silly school girl.. and a whole lotta other shit!! ungLAM!!

i aM lousYY!! so neverrr.. neverRR give me alcohol anymore.. pLS!!

2004-11-04T14:39:00.000+08:00

itS noVemBER!!!!!!.. just 3 morE weeKSS!!!!

term is ending..projects deadlines are drawing to an end.. having lesser and lesser stuff to do.. so much free time at hand now ....till it feels weird..haha.. i am such a hard person to please eh..

a scene : the pouring rain outside my window still and the wind blowing and swaying the trees while i studiously type on my laptop as if i am writing a thesis. (hah..notice i am tryin to sound profOUnd again..but failing... again...haha) how i wish i was overseas.....

then i can have my own room.. my own rules...independance.. mY oWN CAR!!! but that wld also mean i might be all alone in a foreign country...and of coz i need moneey tOO but all the new things u can learn and all the new pple u meet.. and prob a new life u can create...

dun get me wrong.. life now is quite alrite..but yet at the same time.. now in school.. the pple u meet will somehow link to another person that u know... as wat my other frend wld say whenever we realise person A actually knows person B.. "fRIENDSTER lah FrIENDSTER".. its quite interesting to find out the connections but yet at the same time just...... sian...

all of us already had this thought one time or another.. and now it really bugs me too.. its just so dead boring.. how i wish i cld get away and have a diff environment surrounded with different pple.. i might not be the most adventurous person you know but yet the urge to get out there is immensely strong...
the thought of sitting under a big oak tree and reading that thick psychology book and munching on my sandwich...i waNNT THAT!!! just like a typical gilmore giRls scEne!

so school have a big quadrangle right smack in the middle of school.. and we have somewhat big trees at the side BUT somehow the grass just doesnt look inviting enough for me to want to sit under it and read my book. its just the atmosphere ah...

or i am just being difficult.. i always am ..

its been awhile since i am home alone..hah..thus explains the imagination running wild syndrom setting in. and the huge downpour now is not helping my mood...

actually the sound of rain is quite therapeutic eh..excluding the thunder and lightnings.

2004-10-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

i need to be independent! i have to learn not to rely on pple too much
i need to spend more time by myself. i need to learn how to be on my own. i need more 'ME' time.
but when all of u are not around. i swear i will be so lost i will cry.
shit. did i just contradict myself.

i need to be strong. i have to!
i only just wanna enjoy whatever time i have left and make the best of it.
pls stop my fuckin brain from thinkin and worryin and procrastinating..
why do i even allow people's perception to bother me!!

i want music on my bloG!
i want the flava cD!
i waNT to paRTY
27th noV.. hurry up cOMe!

2004-10-26T02:24:00.000+08:00

i am contribuTIng.. my funD is groWingg!! baNGkoK here i cOME!!! =)
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2004-10-26T02:18:00.000+08:00

i am not self-absorbed k.. i put ugly pictures too..hah
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2004-10-19T01:16:00.000+08:00

what is wrong with people nowadays.. why are they either too fucking selfish or they are just all fuckin busybodies.. it piss the hell outta me..seriously.. when one shit thing happens.. the other shitty crap follows..

i cant believe that such pple still exist where they just luVSSS to get themselves involved in matters that does not even remotely concern them or they only have just heard one side of the damm story and so decided to be 'helpful'. do me a favour. dun be. get your fucKINg facts right before u do shit alrite. i am so sick n tired of pple givin me that look for acting paranoid or appearin to be so defensive.. yoU are nOT ME! u fuckin din go thru what i did..so dUN u dare pass judgements on me.
lesson of the day: u cant TRUST anYONEE!! i dun. think in my entire 20 yrs.. i can say only 2 comes remotely close to me trusting them.

2004-10-15T14:25:00.000+08:00

cALLing caLLING!!! anyonee out there intersted to contribute to the supportpriscilla'sbankoktrip fund!! i am desperately in need of funds. so all amount is greatly appreciated. i mean it.. haha..

i am also gonna auction of my clothes...FINALLY! got down to takin the pictures already..now just waiting for my ohh-so-kind and beloved(yes.. i am sucking up to her again!) coUSIN aMELIA to post it up for me on her yahoo auctION!! thankyou thankyou cousin! *huGGSSSS* i will post up the link soon so pple go view it and buy it if interested.
while digging up my closet to look at all the clothes i have.. i am amazed at my taste in fashion in the past.. its soo horrible. not sayin i have better style now.but lookin at some tops or skirts i have.. the only thought i have in my head was..what was i thinking man. And dun even get me started on all my fubu and jnco baggy jeans man. whO the hECK will buy those now.. siGH. and to think i prob at least spent a few hundred on those denim. shits man.. must find a way to sell it or at least make it into a denim bag or something.. i am recYCLING MY CLOTHES!!

hahah..ok on an even funnier note: drIVing lesssons are back for me again.. and seeing my instructor aka big grizzly bear for the uptenth time.. he is forever in that checkered shirt of his..n i mean eVERYTIME.. i am seriously not surprised if his whole wadrobe is fillied with just that particular blue checkered shirts. like u know how batman has his wardrobe filled with that very particular suit. haha.. he is really in need of a fashion consultant man..oh no.. tat sounds a lil bitchy on my part.. but dun blame me.. he doesnt care for my feelings either.. always never failing to remind me of how many times i have failed my driving..ugh! whatever ah..

2004-10-14T01:31:00.000+08:00

was talkin to my fren in class that day and she mentioned about pple settling for second best....
and now that thought is fucking stuck in my head.. n i cant get it out.. shIT!

you cant blame me for wondering and this fuckin damm insecurity is killin me.. cant take no more pressure alreadyy....
demoralized is the word man!!
been tryin to think of that word for the whole damm day..
have i become jaded ever since..
can i trust no more..
gRR..
fuCk insecurities!!!

2004-10-13T23:01:00.000+08:00

how time flies....its incredible to think that a year has pass by so quickly and so many things have changed. i am in school dying away with all the stress from all the datelines, i have new friendsss (nice ones.. thank goodness), new views on life, new emotions, new priorities....

what about the old stuff? i have not forgotten any.. but nonetheless, drifting apart is inevitable..
i hate that feeling... to drift apart.. to recognise the familiarity yet not exactly feel that sense of closeness anymore.. what happened to the good ol days.. with our innocent outlook on life and cracking lame jokes that only we will understand among ourselves..

look around you.. who do u think will be the next one to leave u .. or at least just think who will u not be close to at this time next yr... you wld never expect it because before u know it.. poOF.. you all are on diff paths of your life and u are discovering things without each other.. sighhhh..thats how pple drift apart.. its depressing to just think that

boy.. am i a pessimist!!

2004-10-05T02:57:00.000+08:00

stoP ME!!! i am gettin too sappyy!

its the one wk break lah.. makin me want to just stay up and blog and blog and blog..and blog
whooo going nuts with the blogging.. think i am gettin my groove back in writing deeep eh...its 3am already and here i am clickin and clackin on my laptop keypad.. listenin to sappy songs and havin days of our lives running on the tv...this can only mean one thing....

...dARK EYE RINGS toM!! haha.. so out of point ah

shits.. bloggin is gettin a lil risky nowadays.. everyone and anyone can be readin all these right now.. and my fren just said that there are guys tryin to pick up gurls by readin their blogs.. sad case huh..

i luv to read back all my old entries from time to time.. it is too self-absorbed of me to do that eh..

2004-10-05T02:14:00.000+08:00

am i cursed? seriously...
why do the pple i care for always ends up leaving me one by one..
either that or things will just start screwin up..
am i not fated to feel happiness

the familiar songs that are playin on your stereo
the desire to want to excel at things so that you can be proud of me
the feelin of wanting to look good for a reason
the urge to want to spend time together
the idea knowing that i can call u anytime i want
the very first time i was in your arms as i close my eyes
the solemn and petty face you give when you are upset,thinkin that i do not care
the warm and fuzzy feeling i get when i knew u wanted to stand up for me to some nasty fatass guy....

i will never forget.

2004-10-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

warnING: beware! this is gonna be a sappy post

departure is so depressing....
watching the trailer of friends of the episode where rachel leaves for the airport and ross runs after her.. with the background music of maroon 5.. uGHH!! it just makes me wanna cry out loud!
damm man! i have a soft spot for boys chasing after gurls! i am saPPY!!

this is getting harder and harder each day.. i can feel myself sinking deeper and deeper into it, feeling more and more emotions growing inside me. imagin u are having so much fun and enjoying something good.. but at the back of your mind u know all this is gonna end one day when he leaves.. it so damm sucks!!
i thought i could handle it but i am so wrong.

sometimes i wonder do i just tend to fall in love too easily. but somehow this feels different. this is not fallin in love.. this is just baskin in bliss.. i cant believe i said that..dun remind me.

maybe coz i had a bad experience before so contrast to that, this is truly....perfect. is that too strong a word? i dun even know what exactly i want.. that makes it just all harder. to know u want everything to be prefect and it is.. but knowin things will never last this way..what are u suppose to do then?

all that is wanted is to enjoy all the time that there is left.. but there always come a moment where the inevitable topic is raised and it hits us that the day will come where u will fly away and leave me here.. wat can i say? cry or wish u all the best. then topic will be changed just so to escape reality of thinkin abt it. i cannot pretend anymore that u leaving will not affect me at all.

i just cant expect too much coz i cant.. WE cant.. the nicer everything is.. the harder it gets! HOW!!! how to put everything away once departure date arrives? this is really tough. if only time could just stand still and all the happy moments will just last..but that will never happen..because shit happens.. and that usually happens to me ....alot.

a year ago, i was confused and doubtful.. i always thought all these was never possible.
but today i was proven so wrong. this is what i have been pushing away for these past 5 yrS? what was i thinking..

if only i knew it was gonna be this good...
if only i knew i would be this happy..
if only i knew earlier....
if only
if only
if only...

i am gonna miss you!

2004-09-28T01:09:00.001+08:00

moReee moReeeee....
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2004-09-28T01:09:00.000+08:00

pictURes maKe me hAppy~~
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2004-09-28T01:08:00.000+08:00

haha.. act cuTE pictuReee
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2004-09-28T01:07:00.002+08:00

my first attempt at taking artistic shOT! not bad rite..haha.. both looking away..lost in their own thoughts.. or at least more like they knew i was up to no good
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2004-09-28T01:07:00.001+08:00

advertisment time!! smiLE for sAKAe!!
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2004-09-28T01:07:00.000+08:00

haha.. candid shots.. natural or weird?
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2004-09-28T01:06:00.000+08:00

dessert!! strawberries..yuM!!! look at them.. eagerly diggin in.. tsk tsk..haha..
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2004-09-28T01:03:00.000+08:00

sHhHh.. deep in thought ..selecting the right choiCe of wineee..
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